Two sides of the coin

Author Notes:

'Two sides of the coin' was inspired by two separate poems I wrote. The first was written while in the midst of a powerful affair. The second I wrote after learning my son had Autism, trying to convey the inability to express the pain..there were no words. In writing the second part I was reminded of the first poem,in both situations I wanted to run away, but for two very different reasons. 'Two sides of the Coin' is the result.

Part One:

A love like this comes but once
but oh, that it had come sooner
for now I am faced to make a choice
between a fairytale and a legend

With a love like this
I want to flee
but cannot leave so easily
I wish and long to be with you
but cannot leave my family

Stolen moments throughout the day
are not enough to outweigh
the risk and danger these liasons bring

But oh! The joy, the rapture,
the absoulutely divine
I feel my best when I'm with you
I see my future in your eyes

And if someday my dreams come true
the rest of my life
I'd live with you





Part Two:
I tried to write last night,
the blank pages laughed at me..
as if to say, "How dare you try to voice your woe...
what a mockery."
There are no words to voice your pain,
no pen to write nor keys to type
as swiftly as the anguish comes
and takes away your life.
But yet I am not broken
I cannot be deterred
my soul has thoughts that must take flight
tonight they're through this written word.
For once again I feel I'd love to flee
but cannot leave so easily...
the reasons why this time around
are quite different from the past.
the pain is of a different breed
one which requires a heart steadfast...
I question God most days now,
when once I gave my thanks...
it seems these days are full of questions
is this life just one big prank?